I want to believe in God I really do.

"Religion has convinced people that there’s an invisible man…living in the sky, who watches everything you do every minute of every day. And the invisible man has a list of ten specific things he doesn’t want you to do. And if you do any of these things, he will send you to a special place, of burning and fire and smoke and torture and anguish for you to live forever, and suffer and burn and scream until the end of time. But he loves you. He loves you and he needs money." - George Carlin

I want to believe in God I really do. I pray to him all the time for strength and courage. I never ask him for help or good health because there are others who suffer more than me.  I do have a hard time with the myths and stories I have learned during my Christian education.  I have a hard time believing in original sin. It makes little sense to me. I have trouble with the death of Christ so heavens gates could be open for all. Why?  I have trouble with the whole bible. It is just a collection of books that are to be used to teach lessons to Christian followers. Do people really believe the New Testament is the word of God? Really!  I would think he could write much better than that.

In short I guess I have no faith to speak of and just live my life by Christian Principles because it feels right to me. I just wish other professed Christians would do the same